Sunday, February 22, 2009
this week has been a veri simple n nice week for me...
Mum is getting better..but still will be worried bout her...niwae this week times was spent wif retrieveus...celebrating hisham birthdae...simple celebration but hopefully he wouldnt mind...after this week things will be less hectic in camp due to the end of ATEC..YEAH!!!! no more stoopid mundane training...
Ok as usual weekend was spend wid the destawarriors...great bunch of guys in terms of jokes n laughters...and oso each of them great soccer players n indivuals...getting attached to them since i have playing wif them almost every sundae....aniwae new jersey debut will be next month..haha...
menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan tepaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhkubanyak katay
ang tk mampu ku ungkapkan
kepada dirimu
reff:
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
di setiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakini ku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil sluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tahuku slalu milikmu
yang mencntaimu
sepanjang hidupku
5:36 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
mom is sick again...
n todae something happen in the family...
i only hope she will get better...
i don noe wether i have done my duty well as a son...
i cnt tink of wat will happened if i lose her...
i realli don want to tink the worse...
but mom's werds jst now has awake me n so worri me...
i cant bear to leave her all alone at home...i want to accmpny her and make her happy again...
hopefully mum will get better each dae....
mood= worried n sad
3:07 PM
Friday, February 06, 2009
As days goes by..the end is coming nearer...even though it is till months not days yet..the feeling of uncertainty n lost when outside the real world is there...Am i prepared after 2 years of army..where studies was stop n everything was stagnant...my use of language in both malay n english has drop..don tok bout my brain...cause it will be too rusty to even use....in the army any language is acceptable..vulgar n words tat in the real world we hardly used or heared...in the army we follow orders tat is given whereas in outside life we had to take more initiative...it would be tat easy to transit frm an army life to the real world...i had considered lots of stuff...Such as the PRison warden,SPf,ICA and even of thinking of signin on the army...but there are still doubts on wat i realli want to do...i do not want to make rash decision...
8:26 PM
Sunday, February 01, 2009
Even though its been a long time since i even other to update my blog...don tink theres nothing happen during that time...lots of thing happen...
Mum was admitted to hospital on the eve of CNY..but now shes back home..even though her health is ok..but im still worried bout her...calling her to remind her to take her medicine n oso update me on hw she is feeling has been a regularity rite now...like my frenz say..we had only one mum...its my duty to take care of her rite now...after all these ears that shes has been taking care of me my siblings...life is so fragile...u may be laughing n playing todae...but u nv noe that u might be on the hospital bed fighting for ur life the very next dae...
Congrats to my frenz who has finally had their jobs that they wanted..fie as a prison teacher while as Sham as a policeman...may ur choice in the career bear all of u a fruitful experience...for me...job hunting has started...hopefully after my ns i find a job straight away...
even though this past few dae has been tough for me..i normally had my laughter from them...thanks FIE, Sham, MAz , Aishah...for being there during those tough time... all orf ur laughters n jokes calm me during those testing time...thanks alot..appreaciate tat lots...
During those time i really want someone to pour everything out to..crying my heart in front of u...wanting those hug to calm me down...but sadly u werenot there...its time..to move on..those msgs that i have kept on my phone will have to leave...all these years tat i wasted...its time to forgo my wishes tat i wan to end my life wif u....
9:35 AM
