Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Maybe saying the truth isnt the best option after all..
Maybe being honest wouldnt come good all the time...
Who say everything will be lovely dovely all the time...
Hainz...things are not going rite for both of us...i don noe wether its me or her...i did wat she asked me to..to be honest n try to open up myself...i did wat i thought was the rite things..supposedly to strengthen our relationship...but i didnt expect it to be like that...I admit that i say things that are harsh...something that you didnt expect to hear...but its how i feel...i thought we can werk things out..but...now i realli understand the meaning of silence is virtue...
I noe that u r stress at skool..u finding it hard to cope in school..but i have always be there for you...I on the MSN veri early..msgin u...calling you...i will listen to ur problems n help u...did i ever deny u from complaining to me?
I admit that the past few daes i been some sought neglecting u..but did i still msgs or call u? i did..ever i did is all for u...even if i fuckin tired i will still called u if that wats u wan...cause i wan u to be happy...i don care how tired i am or how sick i am i will do anything that make u happi...
Myabe its my fault..or NO...its my fault frm the start till now...im too bo chap to care bout her n wat u think...i would not feel any sadness or grief since im someone who cant be bother wif stuff...its my fault for trying to make u happy all the time...its my fault...its my fault for asking u to concentrate on ur skulwerk rather than me..u tink its easy for me to do all this things...its sacrificies which i made for u...FOR U...
Im helpin u in the future to no be too much dependant on me..maybe i should have said it...but im going to serve the nation soon..i would be away n busy..there will be little time for us...its not easy for me...tell me honestly which boifrenz in this world wouldnt want to spend all the daes wif his gerlfrenz?? i want but i cant..time isnt on my side...secondly i can't have my Hp bill to be 100 bucks all the month...i didnt blame u..thats y im trying my best to cut down on my sms n called...even that..i cut down on my expenses....i can't every month forkin out 100 bucks on my bill...at least i did msg or called u....
I love u so much...does u noe it?? u only noe how bo chap i was...or izzit too much that ending up to be like this...this is our first major arguement...lets see how we came out from this...lets see n what unfold between us....
U want a break...i will give it to u...u do wat u deem is rite to u...if the unexpected happen...even thought it wouldnt be easy..i will agree to it...
To my friends reading this...any advices?
How am i feeling??? i should feel nothing...should i....thats wat u want n say...
thats what u get...my heart feel numb...its a revisit of the past gloomy years i had in the past..
9:27 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Dear has been bugging me to update my blog...haha...come on lar..wat can i update bout..haha...but if i never update my blog then..i have to face the wrath of her..hehe..and she in this moment of time "kuat MERAJOK"..haha..so better be safe than sorry...hehe..they say when woman are angry...its worse than all the natural disaster combined into 1...hahahaha
I just have this feeling that the enlisment letter would come sooner than later..hainz...i don noe wat my fate will be..but i have to be mentally prepared soon...hainz...cnt bear to leave my dear all by herself..hainz.....pity her ler...
Before i got enlist...there are several thing that i would like to do..*hint to dear*
1)Spend more time wif dear
2)Go to Jurong Bird Park
3)Sentosa
4)Hang out wif my GUY FRENZ till LATE HOURS
5)Having a picnic
6)Catch a midnight movie
7)Go ZOO
Dear..how??? any of this 7??? sad...i think dear now busy wif skool..where go time for me...sob2...hainz..
*When will my result slip posted to me??*
9:37 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
Since i got nothing 2 do...n kinda bored...i will do something meaningful todae...Everyone has got their own wat they called bestfrenz or watsoever..the one whom u noe that can cheer u up when u r down...hehehe...im going to blog bout my blood brother Shafie..don get anything dirty up ur mind...haha...hehe...
Shafie was the first person whom i spoke to when i enter secondary school..i still remember his center parting hair...hehe...we just click from that moments onwards...i
still remember how much he complain when he had to sit wif khairunnisa..hehe..we even got the same CCA...that was the band...anyway i left the band early while my dear frenz stay n lend his service to the band for 6 years...there was an incident during the band..we had to choose an instrument....There was one instrument which me n him go for...which was the EUphonium..but only person can get the instrument...since i was the smaller one..fie didnt choose the instrument..he get the bigger one which was the bass before he went to the Tuba...haha..aniwae along the way...we had a major arguement...its not between us..we didnt speak to each other for few months...before both of us relented...we even repeat our N level together...it wasnt agree...it was a coincidence..we pass our N level on our 2nd attempt...haha...During sec 5...we had memorable time...the S-cube...the MAths periond..hehe...even thought we didn't do well for our O level..but we didnt feel that disappointed..haha...cause we had a Distinction each..hahaha....Aniwae...we even went to the same ITE together...haha....
SHafie...is someone who u can crack up jokes to..veri honest n frank..someone who u can gurantee will give u a "wake up" call if u need one...8 years oreadi i knew him..haha..so long ar!!! haha...someone who i can irritate...hehe...thanks hor FIE!!!!..hahaha...
* Hope kao n Yanty go all the way!!!!*
8:32 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
1 Month oreadi...its our 1 month together..Meet dear at causeway point..try to help her wif her new laptop..but cnt understand the Vista settings..sori hor dear...haha..aniwae...try to suprise dear wif a suprise celebration...but then he lighter didnt werk...damn...but nvm...someone startin skool 2molo..herm...i tink little time for me oreadi...sad...aniwae...my dear frenz SHAFIE..has declared Himself to be ANTI-SOCIAL oreadi..haiyoo...he don want to go out wif me oreadi!!!...hahahaha..
When will the letter come?????
9:26 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
How have everyone been? Result for the last term is out soon.I forget my passwerd so have to ask Freddy Ching to reset it.Aniwae not looking forward to it..as i have no intention to enter POly for now.So watever outcome i will be satisfied n happy noeing that i did my best for all of it.OK...Dear get into RP.WEll done..Proud of u..haha
Love In 30 Days
Read this, sad but touching.....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.
Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.
Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..
DAY 1:
They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.
DAY 4:
They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.
DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..
DAY 14:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: "My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily." Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.
DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.
DAY 28:
They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.
DAY 29:
11:37 pm
Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..
Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...
20 minutes later... a stranger approached Jasmine.
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.
11:57pm
The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.
Jasmine read the letter which says:
Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine...
Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..
"Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me...
Then the clock strikes 12
Daniel's heart stop pumping.
THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...
Always love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...
To be love is a speacial feeling. U just knew no matter how much other peoples hate u,in the back of ur mind u noe that u r being love by someone.To fall in love is the sweetest things but it is also the hardest things. Because u love that speacial someone so much, u try ur best not to do anything that hurts her. Sometimes u tink what u do is rite but when she flares up, u don noe wat happen. Sacrifices is something that are useful n important in a relationship. No matter how much ego both person had, someone must give in. No matter wat the status u had in ur relationship, u have to sacrifices quite a lot. No one will had a perfect boifrenz or gerlfrenz no matter how much they brag bout the person. Because when u r so much in love the person is perfect for u...when u get tired of that particular person u say that she or he isnt wat u looking for....its an irony..but u have to accept it.....
10:21 PM
