Monday, October 30, 2006
Yesterdae..i got this weird dream bout her..so weird that i wake up from it..luckily its a dream...if it a reality....i don noe how im gonna face it...ok here i go again...thats what u tink...haha..but i not gonna tok bout it...cause i feel more hurt than joy tokin bout it..aniwae..the last semester is gonna be HECTIC...cause we got 2 video to shoot...good quality vdeo...in around 6 months...thats mean sacrifice my time wif my frenz...damn i HATE it...walao..hope we can shoot it without any glitches so we can finish it early....i just cant wait for this thing to end...plus th skool..so i can get out from here....inside me thinking that i don belong here...but this is the path that i choose..so get over n done with....i don care bout my result animore cause 1stly im not gonna go POLY which everyone has the fetish to go for it....cause im gonna serve the nation..by the time i finish mt NS..its working life for me..gonna work and earns lots of money....Money is so essential now...without it....ur life will crumble to pieces....haha...eh wait...u must ask why don i wan to go POLY??? Haiyo come on lar....if u goona go there just for the intention for the cert...don waste ur time...in ITE copin wif life is hard...wat bout poly....hehe...what i noe....i have set my mind on NS...im gonna prepared for it mentally...thats more important for me....hahaha...ANiwae my SIS is addicted to Princess HOurs..hehehe...and the outcome...SHE GONNA GET THE DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAh......hahaaha..n guess wat she bought another DIGICAM...haiyo.....my dear sis sure gots lots of money....hahaha
7:24 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
WHY after such a long time...my love for her never dissipate..but it gets so strong that sometimes it feel that my heart will burst...It might burst one day..it realli might..Don noe Y..i tried so much to forget her..every little memories that i had wif her..i tried to erase..erase pemanently in my memories..but i cant..realli cant...its painful to see HER go away just like that..and what make it more unbearable is that i didnt do anything about it...Y must i let her go to be wif that that guy..The reason is that simple.because i LOVE her so much that i don want her to be hurt when shes wif me...i want her to be happy..to see her smile..even though the smile wasnt for me but to her guy...i was content...to hear from my during that time that she was happy wif her new guy..i was happy...happy cause she is happy...but now i regret it...REGRET...its too late i think...i should be selfish and kept her by my side...and not letting her go even though it will hurt her...maybe im too WEAK...im weak because i like her..Its been torturing for me for the last few years..and this year it hurts even more...maybe as im an adult right now...soon marriage will be in my parents lips...i don noe what will i do if as years goes by..my love for her become stronger.....i don want to be hurt again...and i don wan to hurt another person...i noe hoe it felt and i don wan another person to go throgh what im going through...U can say that to love the person doesnt mean that u had to have her..but to me..i wan her right now...right now beside me...so that i can open my heart again...its been so dark in my heart...i fear that no light will able to pass throught it..when it happen..i don noe what will happen to me..this past few days..i have been thinking...when will this all stop..the answer to it..NONE...i don have the answer to that..even if she say that she doesnt love me personally..it doesnt meant that any gals can enter my heart or i have accepted them to enter my heart...please let this unbearable go away from me..cause i cant take it any more..my heart is like going to burst..
12:19 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
school reopen next week and i don look forward to it...whu have rite..aniwae my last term of school before i serve the nation..haha...
Aniwae..last few daes and week have been memorable...been spending lots of my times wif my brothers...plus their gals....haha..aniwae one of my bro has enter a new phase of life..he has enter CISCO..haha..good for u SAF...tkder lah kao start stop werk.....hahaha... Aniwae my HP spoilt and im using Nokia 8210..so classic rite..wif 8.9 megapixels...hahaha...damn i hate it....WHERE IS MY SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u say during my second year i got my scholarship...where is it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! since im using the 8210...memories flash back as most of the old msg i had wif her is there..every single of it...sometimes...i do miss her lots...especially her smile...damn...Y cant i get her out from my mind...WHY!!!!!.......
11:12 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Just finish checking my result and feel quite happy wif the 3D animation...as expected get C for htat cause i hate that lesson...hahaha...so bad sia..aniwae...me n my buddies have been meeting each other often as expected...not for going out....just for relaxing and sharing out our problems...even though it seem girlish but i tink it is realli fun..haha..aniwae one of my buddies have a relationship problem...and i tink seriously tink that both of u had to sit down and tink what both of u realli want from each other...no point bickering once to often cause it will realli harm ur relationship....i realli hate to see both of u fighting most of the time...cause both of u are a nice person...and i realli want my frenz to be wif u cause...he changed because u wanted him to..isnt that good...he willing to sacrifice for u but what u gave him is pain after pain..please be more understanding and just not think of urself..i noe u got someone whu stole ur heart last time...but it is the past oreadi..u are not wif him...he left u...cnt u just start afresh...be grateful that u have someone whu love u..someone whu care for u and sacrifice for u..isnt that enough for u...what more that u want..don regret when u lose him..cause u never noe that maybe u are fated to be wif him..haiyo.......aniwae thats it for now...need to sleep lor..hahahaha
10:16 AM
