Monday, January 30, 2006
haven been updatin my blog recently...n ppl have been complainin..gees...have been busy with assignment n assingment n assignment...hahaha..plus project..plus presentation...sobusy n tiring....realli have no tyme to mmet my peepz recent week...CNY celebration was quite fun..hahai celebrate CNY u noe..haha..play bowling wif my family n busu n mak uda/pak uda plus mamat at bukit gombak..haha...FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! GILER!!!!!!!!!....haha....wee...todae went to syafiq house before headin town to mit juwita..play pool with chicken n fiq...haha...as expected kecoh giler punye..haha..klah malaz nk update...
11:24 PM
haven been updatin my blog recently...n ppl have been complainin..gees...have been busy with assignment n assingment n assignment...hahaha..plus project..plus presentation...sobusy n tiring....realli have no tyme to mmet my peepz recent week...CNY celebration was quite fun..hahai celebrate CNY u noe..haha..play bowling wif my family n busu n mak uda/pak uda plus mamat at bukit gombak..haha...FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! GILER!!!!!!!!!....haha....wee...todae went to syafiq house before headin town to mit juwita..play pool with chicken n fiq...haha...as expected kecoh giler punye..haha..klah malaz nk update...
11:24 PM
Monday, January 23, 2006
HOW does one noe noes that he or she is in love??? wats the feelin realli feel?? coz i lost the feeling of love reallo after so long..sometymes i feel that i like that person but i don love that person...suprise rite..im confused realli...how can one lost its sense of love..realli...is the feelin rite when u mit that someone ur legs start to wobble or when she didnt msg u for 1 dae and u feel like sometin not rite for the dae..haha..how does it feel to been in love...is it great?? is it wonderful when u noe that u had a companion..u noe that someone is waitin for ur call...that someone to say she or he LOVE u...givin u a hug when u need a moment of comfort or a kiss when u do somethin proud...haha..gees how i hope that i am in love rite now..so that i can feel all this wonderful feelin.........5 long years.........its gone.........will she ever come back to me?? will it be only a fantasy or reality??
3:27 AM
haha...my second post..woohoo..cant somebody knock some sense to me..ask me to go to sleep now...of course then would not be anyone to ask me to sleep coz im such a lonely soul rite now...hainz...got nothin to sae realli bout my life this week...just staggered..nothin much realli...school life has been bore and my life has been dull..u all can call me boring but thats realli not much for me to spart into excitement...thats y i been goin home after school..not that im arrogant but i just find it boring sometimes hanging out in school..but of course..my daes of hanging out after school has long i banished...i such a good boi rite..haha...of course..and i noe that...aniwae cnt wait for the weekend...my leg is itchin for not playin soccer last week..haha..can we just fast forward the dae to sat coz i can play my hearts out..woohoo..cant wait to team up wif flang, doke and gim guan again..haha..gees..thinkin bout it make my legs movin and kickin..haha...its alive!!!!!!!!!!1
3:16 AM
I should be sleepin at this time but what am i doin rite now?? blogg....aniwae...cant sleep todae...coz MANCHESTER UNItED WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GLORY GLORY UNITED!!!!! haha...gees..my sis bought w800i...what a kaypoh...haha..i just thought of buyin it and then she bought it...so unfair...nvm i wait for other models to come out so can get better type...haha..im SHORT of cash rite now...haha...have to pay my hp bill and then this week the NLB letter come..said i had to pay $5o for outstandin fines...gees...shocked coz it been 10 years since i borrow book from library...i don even noe when did i borrow the book...aniwae just have to pay it..gees..how am i goin to get that money..have to use my next month allowance to pay and have to pay my bills also..shit damn it...y now that u sent me the letter...after like 10 bloody whole years...Suprisin this week...i stayed at home...haha...nv go out during the weekend..so good rite...haha..just some ways for me to cut down on my expenses...and i would try not to eat in school...so as to save some money to pay all this thing...hahaha
3:06 AM
Friday, January 20, 2006
weee...this week im so stress up...presentations, assignments, projects, test are all piling up...haha...suprised that ITE was that stressful...what to do...get over and done with..hope that i had a great weekend..need a rest for my tired body...thats all for todae...
9:47 PM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
"I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more. "
"Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted."
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
You've never felt pain until you've felt love.
No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.
It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.
Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours
IM such a failure!!!!!!!!! FAilure to forget bout the past....the past bring pains while the future brings sufferings......Y does falling in love easy well gettin over it is difficult...gees..love is cruel...VEri cruel......haiz...y does i always brought down to earth while trying to foerget everything bout u......y are u so difficult for me to forget bout while i don suffer like this in my previous relationship...y are u so cruel to make me suffer like this...gees...Action speak louder than words and i have fail to heed tis advices...my studies are deterioratin a little bit coz my mind aint realli focused nowadays....i hv to get my mind to the goals that i set to myself....come on PUB....u can do it....have to work harder now...mindset changed for now....PLEAZ forget bout the past even though the future brings more suffering.......
8:57 PM
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."- Anais Nin
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
"A friend is one who walks in when others walk out" -Walter Winchell
Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival." - C. S. Lewis
"What sunshine is to flowers, smiles are to humanity. They are but trifles, to be sure but, scattered along life's pathway, the good they do is inconceivable."
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence." - George Eliot
Was reading one of my bloke blogs when i found somethin...haha..true frenz stay by ur side but not frenz....frenz are there for u but not there for u when times in need...haha...true friendship is not like a glass where it is breakable....haha...i should be studying for my test now but then i got no mood to study..have to depend on luck 2molo...haha....well havin putting this qoutes of wonderful werds inside..i feel blessed that i made true frenz..yaya..i got many frenz to whu abandoned in tymes of need..but its ok course my true frenz are there for me....weeeeee..glad i went to Deyi coz my frenz there are the best bunch of alll...haha...the laughter cried we endured makes pur friendship stronger...haha..i wont want to mer=ntion name coz my pals are the group whu i always hang out with..they are the one for me...hehe..even though my love life haven bee sorted out yet..u my pals are the best of alll.........
8:45 PM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Gees..life seems so stalled rite now..lesson are such a bore that u have to do something to keep ur mind from de activated...haha...haha..it been such a long tyme since i graduate from my secondary school...haha..even though it seems so long ago..i felt that it was just like yesterdae i graduate....haha..even though me n some of my frenz are meeting each other regularly..i just hope that we as a class can meet and have fun just like we use to do...and of course lets bring the teachers along...haha...this few daes the skool will be like a carnival as the january intake settle in...so lets say shortage of space to eat...haha..wee...my body hasnt recovered from my fever since i hasnt been restin my body to its fullest...so my fever is prolong for a little while....furthermore..im short of cash this month...thanz me for not paying my bill last month which in the end added in my bill this month..haha...aniwae..yesterdae i was irritated by one of my mFD teacher..she was so damn2
!@#%%^& that it isnt best to say...aniwae...i mizz this wonderful teacher of mine whu taught me for 6 years in my secondary school....
Her name was Mrs Serene Chu...she normally teach me science which include biology..ook..she was my form teacher for 2 years..Once when i was in sec 1 and sec 3..during her stint as my form teacher...i realli don like her much...she sometimes would intervene into my personal life so that i would get my mind to focused into my studies..she would do her best to stop me from playing soccer during the examination period..which i tink doesnt realli goes well for me...when u grow up..i become a little bit mature and ur relationship with teacher change into more like a frenz rather than student and teacher relationship..it was the same wif me...when i repeat my sec 4...i and my frenz bonded wif her much better...like i said both the parties treated each other like adults and both parties have utmost respect towards each other.....Yah...we do have arguements bout school werk but when the bell rings we are frenz not student and teacher...she had my utmost respect as she would do her entire best to make sure we do well for ourselves..of course for the exam but most importantly for the future such as characters and personality.....to her sometymes our best isnt enough n she will drove s to the next level..what i means is that when other people are doin 100% she would like us do more than that...whats important is that she had confidence in our ability..she noes that we can do well...its beens long since i met her..she had transferred to one of the top schools..i just hope me and my frenz will have the tyme to visit her..and thanx her for what she had done to us...THANX U MRS CHU...woohoooo
8:09 PM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
I cant seem to concentrate for the past few daes..it seem
that i have been in the wilderness...without any purpose of life...smtymes
im thinkin..what have i done in the past 19 years in my life..have i done
much good than sins or
vice versas..Am i too driven to achieve my golas and dreams
that i forget that there r people arnd me whu need my attention
and tyme...have i keep all the "revenges" so long that im hurtin
myself inside...have i take care of my bodies...letting them rest when they need it..
Aniwae as i sae this...my mind will twirl back 5 years ago..the fateful
dae i broke up wif her...that someone whu i trusted whole heartedly...but
all was gone..the trust, the tears..but what was left was the memories...
Love shows someone whether they are a man or a boy..someone
whu can get through breakup r someone whu care for himself..I went
through all this..but im not sayin that im a man...i suffered lots when i don care
for myself..i went down to shambles..not pickin myself up...letting myself
down....showing to people arnd me that im weak.."u" play ur cards well...not
showing ur "Ace" until u noe that i left nothin to myself...i let u win and
u take it for granted...i wasnt prepared for the outcome of the game coz
i wasnt expected to end up like that..u play well...i was taken
by suprised...next thing i noe..that u r playina different
game wif someone...doin the things where it should be..u
discarded the rule u set to me..u let that someone play his rule not urs...u
left me utterly in shocked...gosh..i don noe u can be
that mean..even though we were apart...i stll care
bout ur game wif him..i don noe y..but i will be keepin myself
informed bout u
...dumb and stupin i can be..peoples wat happened and i accept
that i was the one who was in the wrong...u had a wonderful
tyme playin the game t2gether while i was havin difficulty
starting a new game..
i thought i had forget bout this..thinkin to myself that i had forget bout u..tellin myself confidently u are out of my mind..but i don noe y..u always creeps
back to me...sometymes when im was on the moon..u brought
me down to eart n relaity..u dampen my spirits and strength...and i
have to start all over again...Nut i am..
but u r lucky..after all of this and what u ahve done..i don even
fault u one single bit...i don even blame u or hold any grudges...u r one
lucky soul...i even when to the extend of helpin u when u need
my help..without thinkin twice..i help u..frenz we are...it was not a
mistake that i fall in love wif u..it will never be.....
"Love is ..a beautiful bloom, a rare and delicate flower,
a fantasy only in dreamz that come alive,
comfort in the meanest moment of life,
the creator of peace and destroyer of hate.."
"forgive my eyes for adimirng u,
U stole my heart the moment i talk to u,
call me crazy call me insane,
each tyme my heartbeats it mention ur Name..."
"di sebelik kegelapan terselit cahaya yang terang,
dan di sebalik kebisingin terdapat kesunyian yang tenang
tetapi disebalik kegagalan terdapat kejayaan yang sedang menanti..,"
"...written wif a pen..sealed wif a kiss
if u are my frenz,pleaz ans this...
Are frenz or are we not,
u told me once but i forgot,
so tell me now and tell me true,
so i can say, im here for u,
of all the frenz i've ever met,
u are the one i wont forget,
and if i die before u do,
i'll go to heaven and wait for u..."
"it takes a day to love someone
but a lifetime to forget someone
so never take for granted
the person whu truly ove u."
10:08 PM
Friday, January 13, 2006
damn it..i still haven recover from my fever..how m i gonna play soccer this saturdae..haha...next week the new batch of student will report to skool..damn it..the cafe will be bloody hell packed sia..confirm...aniwae..lesson in skool is becomin dull..its gettin worse i think...im tryin to do my best this term...hoping to better my grade...aniwae...im lazy to type more..cant wait for 2molo...we will be conquering the court again!!
2:54 PM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Hari Raya was suppose to be a festive period and enjoyable dae..BUT that wasnt what i got....as expected another war..major war..haha..cnt be bother bout it...no point tokin bout it coz its not worth tokin bout it..haha..aniwae..this past few daes...i have been realli sick...headache.flu,fever..combine into one....haha..aniwae...i got lots n lots of assignment and project to pass up and be completed...gosh...how am im going to complete all this stuff when i not feelin well..aniwae..i reject an offer to attend a leadership training camp on saturdae..haha..don noe y..maybe coz im not a good leader and i don have any leadership skills...woohooo..
5:48 PM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
wee..jst came back from town...with saf n fiq...<> aniwae was playinpool at town even though it was rainin...haha...walao the place was packed with "foreigner" maids n all....me n my frenz felt so like INDON..haha..after that went to far east..walk2 then saw aishah n lynn...haha..cant see the others..then walk back to taka coz its rainin...walk2 no idea..go to the library...was sitting lookin at one book bought newsletter..searchin for ideas..then half way readin while hearing jay chou...syafiq called me that juwita is meetin us at orchard mrt...rush to the mrt..headed to J8 bishan...dh lame tk gi sane..the last was wif me ex..catchina movie there..walk n the saw ayam..herm..so good that he nv acknowlege us..bro gini mcm ka pe...then after that..home swit home..damn it..2molo my presentation..woohooo...scared..
PS: to that SOMEONE
Don be so sad...u will always hv me by ur side ok..its his loss not urs....
aniwae..u realli had brought sunlight n switnezzz into my life....im glad to have u...
9:58 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
todae lesson was cancelled and that means that todae i got no skool...woohooo..was so hapi to hear the news from liyana...aniwae i have been feeling great and hapi again..im now feeling like i was 5 years ago...feel of freedom n hapi...smtymes the feelin of loves creepin in..aniwae..for the past few daes..have been chatting with this SOMEONE....it was great..i haven had a conversation like this since i broke up...i felt hapi...whenever i tok to her...i feel that it was only the two of us in the world..haha..and of course...we had great chemistry..haha..sometymes we tink the same thing...haha..aniwae..i enjoy the conversation we had for the last few daes...hope u enjoy too...woohoo..k2....im wanna sleep again...bye2..
10:36 AM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
skul start todae..and u can see from the faces of the people in the class that it was so dreadful to drag our body here..after such a wonderful break we got..haha..but there weare in skool..havin to listen to the boring theory of MFD..the teacher got frustrated as the class wasnt payin attention..but u cant put the blame on us....the theory was dreadful..there was no life to it...and we had to suffer in silence..for me..i just daydreamz the whole time...ya..the MFD project is now my top priority..herm..i have gather some of the information n pictures that are needed..have to do some more research..but thats all i had to do....aniwae...i have to do a presentation bout the thing that i had to do 2molo..stupid thing..like that oso need to do presentation..veri lame..aniwae..me tink me will not be doin presentation thingy course it kinda lame...realli lame...kkk..me wanna sleep nw..tired..shagged..woohooo
5:41 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPI new Year...was ENjOyin the New year so much...haha..aniwae i have been thinkin of my new year resolution..herm..was thinkin quite hard coz i don realli cnt think of anythin yet..haha..aniwae..the year is realli a testin year for me...
the moment i left Deyi to the dae i went to ITE...i been through lots..some are good and some are bads.......along the way...i may hurt people feelings intentionally or not..n of course there are times where my feelings was hurt..i was down quite a lot of tymes this years..been waitin for that someone..whether it will be a worthwhile wait..i cnt tell..aniwae as im typin this..i think im slowly tryin to accept that i can possibly wait for her..im slowly tryin to open my heart to other gals..whether i can put my trust on that relationship..i have to wait and see..
this year too..new frenz are made since i went to ITE...great bunch of peoples..but of course when u made a new group of frenz i would not possibly been forgettin my frenz whu been there for me since i enter secondary skool...for every new frenz n frenzship that are made..the old frenzship with ur best pals been closer n tighter...thats what frenz are for..
New year means one year older...and oso a new chapter in my life..maybe this is my new year resolution...i wan to live life to the fullest..tryin not to live life with regrets n dissapointments..to enjoy my life...and also to give my best in everything i do..woohooo..haha..because our life is like a book..every new year is a new chapter..we would not noe when the book will end and what will be the ending like...
for now...ENJOY URSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6:53 PM
